11.2005 ACCOMPLI: Chris LTonyanna BSteven TRich TJack W
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I will be more conscious. I will accept all offers. I will do the next, most obvious thing.
11.28.05
MONDAY
Today my mind flitted back to standing in the round-the-block line for the grand opening of the H&M in San Francisco two Saturdays ago... While admiring some of the outfitted mannequins in the windows, the guy behind me started to critique their clothes. I don't claim to have a progressive sense of style, but it wasn't until then that I felt I had an embarrassingly unhip fashion sense. OK, I am overreacting - I’m not that bad, but I’ve never been content with my own state of style. Is it then wrong of me to want so badly to dress like the youth of Japan that I hope to find a Japanese youth willing to send me clothing? (Deep or long-held dissatisfaction can inspire extreme solutions.)

Let us consider the subject of fashion-ability for a moment: What does it mean to have hip fashion sense? Does making the decision to replicate what one sees on a mannequin qualify one as having style? Does rebelling against those static dummies do it? Seriously. Is it any more or less meritable to skip mannequins and copy the attire of other living people? Or is it that most everybody merely copies style while the actual designers of the clothes are the only ones to truly possess it? But how do they qualify? When we desire to wear their clothes? Does that validate their creations as being stylish? Or does it qualify us as having a hip fashion sense?

It’s beginning to look like having good fashion sense is not what you wear but what you want to wear. But displaying this style is something else completely, and so I don’t really feel lacking in fashion sense, but just in the clothes that I own. Does anyone reading this happen to be a youth in Japan or know where I can get the clothes I’ve always wanted? laughing face

QUOTABLE: Me: To what address did you send the Thanksgiving photos?
Brother I: ben.dudek@[omitted to spite the bots]
Me: LOL! Dork, I have no idea who that is.
Brother I: Well, maybe now ben dudek will have a happy Thanksgiving after all.
TUNAGE:
[hear]
[buy]
[me]
Anggun
"Little Things"
"Open Hearts" soundtrack
Probably my favorite Anggun track despite the depressing subject matter.
11.15.05
TUESDAY
I'm certainly suffering from post-relationship withdrawal symptoms. Being someone who loves to love and who loves to live with friends, it's gonna be painful to suddenly be without the daily relationship I've lived in for the past 1.25 years. Missing him is creating doubt that sometimes already borders on regret, but I believe I'd be setting myself up for even more regret by staying... so I must go. It's gonna be tough; I just gotta soldier through it. worried face
QUOTABLE: Tonyanna B: Ah, there you're correct.
Me: Really? Ooooh, I shant move then - never, ever!
Tonyanna B: You could, but only to Germany.
TUNAGE:
[download]
[no shop]
[me]
Party Ben
"Sixx Mixx 106: Breakdown Edition"
Not available in stores - Originally aired on Live 105 on 11.11.05
"How can something so wrong [Gay Muppet Bar] feel so right?" - Party Ben