09.2005 ACCOMPLI: Audrey K Chris L Hon Mun L Steven T Rich T Chris T Jack W
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I will be more conscious. I will accept all offers. I will do the next, most obvious thing.
09.13.05
TUESDAY
Wow, if you've ever felt that a song was written for you, you will appreciate this:

Lyrics

I'm a hopeless romantic.
You're a terrible flirt.
Cool and unfazed,
You're always amazed
When someone gets hurt.

I live on the blue planet
That I saw in your eyes.
But now I can't stay,
Knowing it's made
Of beautiful lies...

My Life

•SO true. Probably the biggest.
•Not exactly a flirt. He's friendly, though.


•He never seemed to understand what hurt me,
and so was surprised each time he did.

•At first, I thought he was "the one"...


frowning face

TUNAGE:
[hear]
[buy]
[me]
The Magnetic Fields
"My Sentimental Melody"
69 Love Songs
My entry was about the song practically describing my recent relationship!
09.12.05
MONDAY
I feel like I'm about to hibernate... or at least put my love to bed for a while. This prospect has me realizing that I really enjoy having someone to care for. I love looking forward to seeing someone. I love planning things to do with him. I love selecting entrees with him that will please us both. I love wishing him goodnight as I wrap my arms around to keep him warm. I love wishing him a great day at work as he drops me off. I love thinking of him and how to surprise him and all the other ways I could make him happy. I love to love. I am going to miss him. frowning face
TUNAGE:
[hear]
[buy]
[me]
Frou Frou
"The Dumbing Down Of Love"
Details
Frou Frou never fails to save this lover alone without love.
09.11.05
SUNDAY
Well, I think it's finally over. There are very few people who could fix the damage he's caused to our relationship. And I don't believe that any amount of hope on my part could ever help him become the hero we need.

But should I even care about someone who would knowingly and willfully do something that would strain our relationship? ...and then lie to my face that he hadn't done it? I actually don't think I've ever been so disrespected in my life. And he loves me??? Hard to believe. He makes it SO damn hard to believe.

"You knew this would happen," he accused me. No, you did. You knew there'd be big trouble if I found out about what you did, and you know that I hate liars. I did NOT know this would happen - I never would have dreamed that you'd risk our future like that. It's my nightmare that you did.

You knew. You gambled. You lost.

I love you. But don't you tell me the same thing; I've learned you don't mind lying to me.

TUNAGE:
[hear]
[buy]
[me]
Third Eye Blind
"How's It Going To Be"
Third Eye Blind
This track prophetically played on his laptop last night.